We have named our angel baby...

We have decided on a name for our angel baby. I had the very strong feeling that it was a boy and so his name is Chilion Jeremiah Fuller. Chilion means finished; complete; perfect which we thought was a great way to describe this baby that we will not see this side of heaven.

How to pronounce Chilion

A friend of mine who has also experienced the pain of miscarriage wrote to me that "I grieve for you, at the very thought of the nearness of your loss. But I know this: our little ones are in heaven. God has lovingly spared them the experience of a fallen world. They will never know the grief that you and I are experiencing now. No tear will fall, no trust will be betrayed, no love will be unrequited, no violence will ever befall them. No demonic spirit or unregenerate heart will turn their hearts against God. Their eternity in heaven cannot be altered."

I hadn't thought of it this way before. I honestly bristled when I first read this but then God helped me to see it through His eyes. While I will always miss him, I am grateful that he is in heaven with Jesus for eternity and that he won't experience all the pain and heartache of this world.

Perhaps now that we have named Chilion, we will be able to cry, grieve and move forward - always remembering him but not allowing our grief to overwhelm us or continue to be our identity.